Hey y’all!! Alright, first things first…HAPPY MONDAY!! I seriously hope EVERYONE had a lovely, just SO inspiring you couldn’t stand it kind of weekend!! Let me say this before I get into further talk that you guys are beyond belief the coolest, sweetest, kindest, most amazing people in the entire world. I truly mean it and am faaar from kidding…just ask my husband. After my disappointing half marathon race yesterday, I read to my husband the comments you wrote (these comments) and I literally started crying SO hard that I could no longer speak or read. There are no words that I can write here that truly express how lucky I feel to have y’all in my life…just no words…hey look, I’m crying again. You know, the part I love most about blogging is not being scared to put my hopes/dreams/goals/wants/races (and swim meets) I’ll be competing in out in the open for all eyes to see because I know that no matter how bad I might mess up at a race that y’all will be here to pick me up! Aaaand you have!! Thank you!! Thanks for all the good luck wishes, too!!

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Sooo yesterday wasn’t my day!! At the very beginning of the race, I lined up next to the 1:35 pacer and felt this whole surge of emotions coming over me. These couple months of hard half training…would it pay off? Um, yes it would, well at least I thought it would; although, I have to tell you, prior to this race, I’d felt a little break in my mentality. The last couple of weeks of training felt different for some reason. Possibly the fact that I hadn’t been swimming (which brought me to tears), didn’t hit some of my last runs (like the 15 miler), and honestly felt like I needed a running break (which I no longer want…I’m more determined than ever).

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As the National anthem soared in the air and through my bones, I closed my eyes and felt a single tear roll down my face…there is a certain calm before the storm face I get that leads spectators to stare at me and wanna give me a hug before the race I think…I mean, I reflect back on everything in my life that has led me to this very moment…ever…single…moment:

I thought about my cousin Angela that recently lost her life to cancer (years and years of battling)…I was running for Angela and for everyone that didn’t have the luxury to roll out of bed and do something that they truly loved. I was running for my grandfather and my uncle that lost their lives to cancer a few years back and for my Uncle Scott that was born with a hole in his heart and was told that he would never see his 18th birthday…well, he lived to see his 31st birthday before passing away. I’ve never broke down in a full on cry before a race, but I’ve definitely come close. As my husband grabbed my hand before the start and I could give him nothing more than a single nod for fear that I’d break down completely, we were off.

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{Yes, I’m extremely sentimental, maybe even to a fault, I don’t know. I truly believe everything happens for a reason and what doesn’t break us, makes us stronger. I admit, I felt a little broken after this run, actually A LOT broken, but I managed to piece myself back together yesterday and move on. How lucky we all are to just get up and move, right? To feel the wind in our hair and the sun on our face. Trust me guys, the sun will come out tomorrow…it did for me.}

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I also had a beautiful conversation with my run/swim coach:

He inspired me to push on and to keep my chin up because I’m only in the very beginning stages of my running career. It’s true, I guess, I have only been running 35-40 miles a week for barely a month now…my first half marathon in March, I was only running 30 max per week then, so I’m still in the beginning stages of base building. It will get easier and my legs will get used to the extra mileage. I can’t expect to snap my fingers and BAM,  have years of experience all in one day (I wish, but no it doesn’t work like that). Just like swimming is such a comfort for me, eventually, with many more miles, running will become like that, too. I’m also such a new racer. I have very little experience in this area and have lots to learn. Speed is definitely my specialty, but it can also be a curse during longer races. My coach said I could have definitely run a 1:35 (7:15 pace) yesterday, but I didn’t because I went out too fast at a 7:05ish pace (with an uphill) and then stuck under 7:15 pace for a few miles after that. I could tell my body was in shock the last 5k of the race. Around mile 11, I literally came to a dead stop for quite a few seconds, stared at everyone passing me in disbelief (not a good idea by the way…totally kills time), and then walked slowly for a bit, started running again, and then stopped again and stared (yes, in total awe), walked some more, before picking it up some the last part of the race into the finish.

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Although, honestly, I don’t remember much about my 1:37:49 finish, it’s still such a blur, I do know that I want a redo. Last night I signed up for the Richmond Half Marathon November 15th. You see when my body shuts down and infiltrates my mind with all this negative “you can’t” talk, I don’t accept it. I might accept it for a few hours, but then I shut it down, and feel more focused than ever. Despite all the bad things that have taken place in my life, I always find a way to overcome them. I know I’m sunshiny but I definitely have lots of insecurities and frustrations…it’s just how you turn those negatives into positives, I guess.

Soooo the happy part? I did PR by a second, having run my first half in 1:37:50 and Crawlin’ Crab in 1:37:49. Way to go body, right? I seriously put in a last killer surge of power to get it, too which I’m so thankful for.

I learned so much about myself at Crawlin’ Crab and still, for the life of me, can’t believe I got a 1 second PR (after all the stopping, walking, and agony)…it truly shows how capable I am. I’m also picking up more 5ks/10ks in the future (which equals more race experience) because I do know without a shadow of a doubt that 5ks are my specialty. I have so much speed I haven’t even tapped into yet. Running (3 minute) 1/2 mile repeats aren’t so bad anymore…

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My advice? Never Give Up!! Just don’t because you can’t expect to PR at every single race (even when you’ve put in the training), well maybe unless you’re expecting to break the half marathon world record or something, but even then, the very best runners have horrible races, too.

WOW, what an emotional ride! I know I don’t share the sad aspects of my life all that much, but just know, I’ve seen some unpleasantness throughout my 29 years, and I’ll ALWAYS be here for y’all…I WILL!! Happy Monday guys and thanks for everything!! Your determination and motivation OH SO inspires me!! XOXO!

-Kristin

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  1. emmelineruns

    I think you did a fantastic job! It’s also important to remember that not all days can be your best, even if you put in the work. Some days you might not be able to hit the paces that your body could hit just fine 2 weeks or even 2 days later. I know that even in training, one day 8 minute miles will feel easy and like I could go forever and another day 9 minute miles will feel hard and I’ll be struggling just to finish. You still PR’d and that’s something to be so proud of! And I have faith for something awesome from you in November 😉

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    1. Kristin

      HEY!!! You’re right- a PR is a PR!! That’s definitely something to be celebrated, right? Truly, thank you very much for your loving words and for believing in me. That means the world to me! You’re a beautiful, compassionate, amazing woman with so much to offer the world!! I look up to you very much!! xoxoxo

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  2. Feline Creatures

    Wow what an inspirational post! I’m so touched to hear your story and your motivation to run the race. You did a great job Kristin! Your endurance and faith in never giving up is truly an inspiration to your readers. I’ve never done a marathon before but I think it’s a great way to not only show support for a meaningful cause but also train ourselves to push boundaries and never give up on our pursuits. So now I’m definitely thinking of signing up for one 🙂 I’m very glad to have read your post today Kristin. Have a very happy Monday!! – Lena

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    1. Kristin

      Lena, you’re amazing!! Thanks for your comment!! I don’t even know where to start…WOW, you’re such a beautiful woman!! I appreciate your kind and generous words! It means so much to me that you see this post as inspirational!! Running races really does evoke so many different emotions! It’s a great way to show support for fabulous causes!! You’re right!! xoxoxoxo

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    1. Kristin

      Chelsea, from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU for your compliments!! You’re a great inspiration to me and I value your words very much!! You’re the rockstar!! xoxoxo

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  3. weight2lose2013

    You ran the race, Kristin – something that most of us didn’t do. I’m a firm believer that it’s not about wining and losing, it’s about having a chance. Congrats on being a leader and someone who inspires all of us.

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    1. Kristin

      Rob, just sooo sweet!! Truly, thank you!! I admire you very much! Your words always inspire me and give me hope!! Life is about the chance, right? Man, so true!! THANK YOU for being amazing!! xoxoxo

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  4. my KISS fitness

    Very inspiring, love your photos! I think you did amazing just by finishing honestly. 🙂 I feel the same way in the gym, sometimes I’ll have an amazing day lifting, and a day or two later I might not. Sometimes when were too hard on ourselve we take the fun out of the things we enjoy. Glad your feeling better and signed up for another race. 🙂

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    1. Kristin

      Awww, thank you and wow, you’re 100% right- being too hard on myself definitely takes the fun out of racing and I definitely don’t want to do that to myself. I work hard and deserve to laugh and have fun at races!! You’re fabulous!! Thanks for the great reminder!! It means so much to me!! xoxoxo

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  5. Helena

    That is still a fabulous time! My best is a 1:51 and I don’t think I’ll ever get that fast! I felt really defeated after my first triathlon(I came in LAST) because I had put in all this hard work! When it came down to it I was just sick. It wasn’t my day! I also signed up for another one that night and my 2nd went sooo much better! Each race is a learning experience!

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    1. Kristin

      Helena, you’re SO smart!! Thanks for comforting me and for supporting me and for being a beautiful reminder that every race is a learning experience!! So true!! You know, you’re such an inspiration to me!! You always move forward and learn from your race experiences!! I love it!! xoxoxo

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  6. FLRunnerBoy

    You are so amazing Kristin!!! I’m glad those broken wings are on the mend and you’re locked and loaded on “Redemption at Richmond” because YOU WILL toe that line so much stronger I know it! I like that you allowed yourself to be a little vulnerable sharing about the loved ones you have lost. My story is so similar. That fact that you can come out of that as positive as you are and as strong as you are makes me even more inspired by you. Wear that new PR like a badge of honor but stay focused on what you want because I have no doubt in my mind that you’ll attain it. We are both pretty new to racing so I think that “epic” race is still in the future for both of us but especially you missy!!! If you have this much natural ability already you’re going to be a jaw dropper as you continue to gain race experience for sure!!! Keep on keeping Kristin!!! YOU’VE GOT THIS!!!

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    1. Kristin

      Thanks Lee!! You know, I was thinking, we are SO similar!! I love it!! We love peanut butter cups, we are both new to racing, we are both working so hard towards our goals…the list goes on and on! Truly, you’re amazing and just the coolest & sweetest guy in the world!!I love it!! Everything you say always makes so much sense and comforts me very much!! Thanks for that!! I cherish your comments very much! Thanks for always picking me up when I’m feeling down!! xoxoxoxo

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  7. Katie C

    I’m so excited for you that you’ve chosen another race. Way to persevere! Congrats on the PR. I know it wasn’t the PR you wanted, but better is still better! I can’t wait to hear about your next race.

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    1. Kristin

      Thanks girl!! Katie, you’re an awesome person- always seeing the positive side of things!! I love it!! Thanks for this and for being such a great support!! Have a fab week!! xoxoxo

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  8. courtruns4cupcakes

    I’m not a very emotional person, but running is one thing that does make me VERY emotional. I totally understand where you are coming from! Also, so sorry about your cousin who recently lost her life. Now you have an extra angel to help you through your races. Thinking of you! xoxo

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    1. Kristin

      Awww, you’re an angel, you really are!! You have a heart of gold!! So very sweet!! Thanks for this and for lifting my spirits!! You’re amazing and gorgeous and a 1 in a million gal!! You’re going to have a fabulous marathon Sunday- YOU ARE!!! xoxoxoxo

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  9. JMC813

    Sorry to hear about the adversities you and your family has faced. Truly tragic to lose family members so young. There a re so many life metaphors and lessons to be learned through competition. Especially in endurance sports. I am proud of you for facing up and in November when you approach your next 13.1 with a little better mental outlook you will achieve that 1:35. You were sooo close. It motivates me to get back into shape hearing you speak of the challenges and breakthroughs. Also the things you learned about becoming a better runner and pacing yourself. I had the same issue early on in my bike racing. Took me a while to learn how to properly pace and leave EVERYTHING on the course but pace so I could finish faster than I started. That is the hardest thing to gauge when the adrenaline is pumping and the heart rate is at lactate threshold. Proud of you Kristin.

    John

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    1. Kristin

      John, you’re just amazing!! Truly amazing! From the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU for your comment and for your kind words. Everything you said here makes perfect sense and I agree with you very much. There’s definitely a formula to pacing, haha, that I need to figure out! There’s so much to think about come race day that at times, my mind gets very overwhelmed, but like you said, it’s all about practicing. I wish you the best of luck in your race endeavors and I know you’re going to race strong!! Thanks for being proud of you!! That’s so nice to say and truly means so much to me!! xoxoxo

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  10. Charlotte

    I really love how you are ready for the next one right away! That’s what competitors do. I think it’s wonderful that you thought of all your family members who have passed. Sometimes, it’s really good to put your own life in perspective…that way. You will kill that HM in November. 🙂

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    1. Kristin

      Thanks Charlotte!!! Charlotte rocks, yes she does!!! Charlotte is amazing, yes she is!! Woohoo!! How was that cheer?? 😉 😉 Seriously, thank you x a million for your support and for always being here when I’m happy, sad, etc. You’re always here to comment and it means the world to me!! You’re the greatest!! xoxoxoxo

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  11. PNWRunner

    Way to go lady!! I wish I could run a half in that time! I need to get back into running but I have to be careful with my knee.boo! A PR is a PR regardless. Be happy about that!

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    1. Kristin

      Oh no…poor knee!! Knee pain stinks!! I wish you lots of fabulous runs in the future!! You deserve them!! You’re so kind- thanks for your beautiful words!! Your support means so much to me!! xoxoxo

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    1. Kristin

      Thanks Kasey!! You’re the greatest sister in the world!! When I saw your comment, I got the hugest smile!! Thanks for your support!! LOVE YOU!!!! 🙂 🙂 xoxoxoxo

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  12. Lauren @ ihadabiglunch

    I personally think you did an outstanding, outstanding job. That being said, I know you had a personal goal, you worked your BUTT off to make it, and you fell short. That hurts, I know. But at the end of the day I’m so glad you were able to put it all in perspective and know that the sun ALWAYS comes out the next day, ready for you to take advantage of a brand new day. I say this in the least-cliche way possible – but you really are an INSPIRATION. You have a dedication to fitness that I’m still working on. Keep doing what you’re doing!

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    1. Kristin

      Lauren, it’s always hard for me to find the right words to thank you for your generous thoughts!! You seriously are the sweetest, most loving, compassionate woman and after reading your posts and your comments on my posts, I always wish we lived closer!! You’re the greatest!! Thank YOU for being an inspiration to me!! You truly are amazing!! xoxoxo

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  13. blessedwiththunderthighs

    Awesome! You totally earned that 1 second for a PR 😀
    I ran my “signature” half marathon PR course (PR’d the last 5 times)… but I knew I wouldn’t PR since I took the summer off of training from running, haha. BUT… I gave it my all anyways, and had fun! Now I’m even more pumped to return next year to crush the course!

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    1. Kristin

      Hey girl!! GREAT attitude!! Totally love and admire you!! You’re strong and amazing and just a super fast runner!! I know you’re going to PR next year, I KNOW IT!! Thanks for your loving support!! xoxoxo

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    1. Kristin

      Awww, xoxo, THANK YOU!!! So very kind!! Thanks for your love and encouragement!! It really means so much to me!! I can’t thank you enough for your sweetness!! xoxo

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  14. brunettedistraction

    First of all: wow for an incredible time, I mean 1:37 is pretty amazing!!! And secondly: I’m sorry to hear you’ve been struggling with your emotions. I admire you Kristin, you always have the ability to write these great & inspiring posts AND to overcome your negative thoughts and turn them into positives ones. I think that is such an amazing thing!!! I definitely agree that everything happens for a reason and that it’ll make us stronger eventually, although it doesn’t always feel like that at first. So I definitely believe in you and I’m looking forward to your next race!! 🙂 Have a great wednesday!! XOXO!!!

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    1. Kristin

      Smooch!!! Thanks girl!! You’re such a sweetie and I don’t know where I’d be without your beautiful, inspiring comments!! Way to make me smile and feel SO happy!! You’re just the coolest girl ever!! 😉 I admire you for being so focused and goal-oriented and honestly, your words just mean the world to me!! Thanks for the compliments and for your super reminder that little bumps in the road make us stronger!! You’re right!! xoxoxoxo

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  15. irishrunnerchick

    Love your attitude! I think we’re all allowed to wallow a little when we have a bad race day (although running a 1.37 is pretty amazing to me!) but then we need to get over it and get back to work. GO Kristin!

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    1. Kristin

      Thanks so much!!! You’re right- a little wallowing is healthy, but then it’s time to get back to work!! Yep, totally agree and thank you so much for your kindness and for your loving words!! Means so much!! xoxoxoxo

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  16. Shawna

    K — you are truly an inspiration, and i so admire your vulnerability and willingness to share exactly how you feel with all of us. first off, congrats on an incredible race, with a PR (!!!), and the reasons for which you ran. you have such an upbeat, sweet spirit, and i’m sorry for your disappointment with not hitting your personal goal — but the fact still remains that you are an incredible runner and you rocked this race. there will be other races and other times for you to shine — and i know you will — and i know this is just a stepping stone in your long journey of wonderful running accomplishments yet to be had. congrats, dear girl.

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  17. Kristin

    Shawna, you’re making me cry!! Awww!! You’re the most genuine, loving woman- seriously, you are!! Thank you x a million!! I appreciate your thoughts, honesty, and love!! Thanks for putting my race into perspective and your 100% right- there will be other races!! You’re the best!! You really know what to say to make my face shine with a huge smile!! THANK YOU!!! xoxoxoxo

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  18. piratebobcat

    Such a great attitude!!! I’m like you, I get emotional sometimes at race starts and finishes. You can’t help it when you see all the people there who put in so much work (just like us) or you remember someone you want to run for, etc. You did great and will crush it next time!

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    1. Kristin

      Thank you so much!! You always make me feel so much better!! Always adore your perspective! I hope you’re having an amazing weekend!! xoxo 🙂 🙂

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